Not Fit for Each Other

Just a while ago, I was going through my Tumblr Dashboard browsing through it half-heartedly with the background music on when suddenly the song “She Moves in Her Own Way” by The Kooks started to play. I only liked this song because my ex liked it. Ever since I got over the bad break up, I started to hate it.

To save myself from a bad mood, I changed the track immediately hoping to cut the intro short before it leads on to the first line of the song. I hate it whenever I hear songs that remind me of the bad memories I have of the past. It never fails to make me over analyze my past relationships. Thus I always end up getting myself slapped in the face by reality.

Yes, I agree that reality can sometimes be too harsh for us, humans-being-run-by-emotions.  It’s the simple explanation why we don’t like confrontations and being told about our flaws. Because the truth hurts and it sets us free but most of the time, it scars us for life.

I know so well about the truth because getting slapped by it isn’t so fun.  At a certain point in your life, it makes you realize things that you’ve never even cared to think about before. A good example would have to be the fact that the only relationships you’ve had were either sucky from the beginning or it ended really bad and it broke your heart beyond repair. I mean, this case only applies to me but I’m pretty sure it has so much more to give for everybody else.

I don’t know if I was naturally born with a skill of not being able to handle my relationships well or maybe I’m a victim of unfortunate circumstances or worse, I choose the wrong people. The point is, I always end up getting hurt. This makes me think if I’ve been to much of a pushover for them to just hurt me like I had no feelings at all.  Or did I just place myself in these situations without foreseeing what’s waiting for me at the end of line?

Either way, all I hope for now is to be wiser when it comes to dealing with relationships. I don’t want to keep burning the bridges, I want to get passed it. 

01 Breathing Underwater (Marié Digby)